If I Saw You In Heaven

Dancing in Heaven by April Light

Dancing In Heaven by April Light

I am a sentimental lady.  I do have memories that are etched into my mind.  Dates, events, etc. always stick out to me and I tend to almost feel what the memory’s impression made.  Some good, some not always good.  I’ve tried to not be that way, but no such luck.  It’s me, that’s the way I am created.  This being another significant reason why I started this personal blog.  So, I can capture more of the beauty that brings my soul happiness.  Like yesterday’s blog… “A Few Of My Favorite Things” …prime example.

With that being said, I’ve been fighting being really down the last few days. Five years ago today we buried my father.  A man that was a knight in shining armor to me, even with his human flaws. This man took us in when I was 4 years old, he officially adopted me when I was 8 years old. He protected us and kept us safe from a biological father who was severely abusive. 

  I try to tell myself that I should be over this more. I shouldn’t still feel so strongly. It was five years ago. Thing is, his death and burial is linked to me now.  You see, today is also my birthday.  Yes, my dad was buried on my birthday.  I find it hard to celebrate and be happy, while also still feeling such loss. Still feeling grief.  Will I ever not feel it?  Even as I write this, I have tears running down my cheeks. 

So, I decided to honor his memory today and my feelings.  I don’t know if it will get better, but it’s something I felt compelled to do. To get my feelings out, to not be ashamed of them.  

With this, I introduce to you my father.   He spent the last  40 years of his life helping others.  Sharing his testimony and being a mentor – being a dad to thousands of inmates all over.  He loved people.  He loved helping people.  He loved seeing lives change for the better.  He was an example of this and wanted them to know that they too could change their life around.  He is missed by many.

 ~ Melise ~

Dad at Westinghouse

My dad when he was young man working at Westinghouse in Mansfield, Ohio.

The following video is a tribute to his life. 

My dad

My dad always had a smile on his face for everyone and loved to laugh!

Heaven by Pokepetter

        Heaven by pokepetter

“Tears In Heaven”

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
‘Cause I know I don’t belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?

I’ll find my way
Through night and day,
‘Cause I know I just can’t stay
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There’s peace I’m sure,
And I know there’ll be no more
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
‘Cause I know I don’t belong
Here in heaven.

Death

These Are A Few Of My Favorite Things

SRQ Bay Fishing

With my camera I captured a few of my favorite things.

So, when I’m feeling sad, I simply remember my favorite things and then I don’t feel so bad. 

I hope you enjoy them as much as I do and they bring a smile to your day! 

~ Melise ~

Anna Marie Moon

SRQ Island Park

Coquina Beach Waves

Lido Bird

Coquina Beach

What are a few of your favorite things? 

My Favorite Things

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woollen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things.

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites, when the bee stings
When I’m feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don’t feel so bad

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites, when the bee stings
When I’m feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don’t feel so bad.

Songwriters
Oscar Hammerstein Ii;Richard Rodgers

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WILLIAMSON MUSIC

What Do You See In The Mirror?

What Do You See In The Mirror

What do you see when you look in the mirror?  I mean, deep honest, gut feelings.  So many of us struggle every day because of the images that the media bombards us with on how we should look.  We compare how they they look to what we actually look like.  That alone can be discouraging.  Then if you factor in any type of personal problem, whether it be physical, social, mental, etc. related, it makes the feeling of self loathing go up.  We just can’t seem to measure up to what we or the world expects (or rather what the media expects.) 

I have been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Thyroid Disease.  I can’t do the things that I once did.  I get depressed and anxious at times or I get angry and cry because I can’t.  My life has been turned upside down.  It’s hard because people expect that I can still do these things and I feel I let them down, as well as myself.  I struggle with auto-immune issues and all it’s related problems.  I one time went through a period of losing most all of my hair on the crown of my head.  During that time I resorted to wearing hats.  I never had worn hats before that, but I developed a love for them!  I now have all my hair back,  but during stressful times, I still tend to lose hair.  But, because of the love that I developed for hats, I now own several hat boxes filled to the brim!!

I’m learning daily to try to love this new person that I’ve become.  To realize that I still have gifts even if I can’t use them all the time.  I love to encourage others to use their gifts as you never know when they might be taken away from you.  Now you know why I love capturing moments that bring me serenity and happiness.  Why I like to honor the beautiful things in life that brings beauty to our soul.  That delicate side that we tend to push away.

What do you see in the mirror?    ~ Melise ~  

Just Fishin’

SRQ Bay Fishing

Loved that the bird was sitting on the top of the rail, looking to see what kind of fishin’ he could do. :)

I remember a time when my grandparents were visiting us from up north, when I was around 8 years old. My grandpa took me with him to go fishing in this very same bay. Just on the other side of the Ringling Causeway.  It was major for me, I had never gone fishing before and to also have time with my grandpa. I didn’t have to share him with all of my siblings!   I remember being in awe of all the bay life and just watching my grandfather as we sat on the dock together.  This was a special memory moment for me as he died just a few years later of lung cancer.  

These are just a few photos that I captured for memories of going fishing now, as an adult. The first photo is from the Ringling Causeway Fishing Pier.  The other photos are at the Sunshine Skyway Fishing Pier.  ~ Melise~

Fishing

It was a bit of a windy, overcast day.     Still had lots of fun and relaxation.

Fishing1

Yes, as you can see,  I own a pink fishing pole!   Just like in the song “Just Fishin.” :-)

Fishing3

A small one.   I threw him back in of course.   I love saltwater fish.    I had a saltwater aquarium for several years.    It was relaxing just to watch them swim around.

When The Sun Says Good Night

SRQ Bay Boating

I love watching the sunrises and sunsets. There is just something so pure and magical as the sun is making itself known or when it is saying good night.  These are photos that I took as I was out on the bay or on the island.  I am blessed to live in such an environment.  It’s the simple things like this that calms the soul,while the world is going crazy.   ~ Melise ~

SRQ Bay Sunset

Anna Marie Island Sunset1

Anna Marie Island Sunset

Anna Marie Island Sunset2

Nostalgia

Nostalgia means a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.  

Nature always fills me with a sense of peace, it inspires me to enjoy life better. It lifts my mood. So, on days like this when I can enjoy the scenery around me, I like to make memories that I can recapture.  In the future I will be able to look at these photos and automatically it will transport me back to this beautiful day. I will be nostalgic for long summer days, when the heat is warm and the gulf breeze is fair.   ~ Melise ~

Beach Day Lido 7-23

If you look closely there is a turtle  cage to protect the nests in the center of the sand.

Beach Day Lido1 7-23

I thought it was cute to see all the Egrets sitting on the posts. A Blue Heron over in the far left. They liked hanging around the mud puddles from all the rain we’ve been having.

Sarasota Bay

It’s so relaxing to sit and swing, listening to the water gently roll in. The view is never tiring.

Sarasota Bay1

SQ Bay1 7-23

So many parks that encourage one to just sit, take in the scenery and breathe.

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Only Hope

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Photo Credit Unknown

Don’t miss opportunities because of fear.  

I think of one of my favorite movies, “A Walk To Remember”, by Nicholas Sparks. A popular young man who is rebellious and and known to be a renegade meets a quiet, good girl that is looked down on by the popular crowd at school. Both of their lives change in ways they never could have imagined.  This movie is based on a true story.  If they would have let fear, differences, popularity, social class, etc. get in the way, they would have missed out on the biggest miracle of their lives.  How many times do we let things get in the way of what could be our only hope?  A hope that could be life changing.   I just want to encourage you to go out on a limb in your life.  Step out of your comfort zone.  Live life!    ~ Melise ~

“A Walk To Remember” 

If you have not seen the movie, it’s one that I would suggest.  Enjoy! 

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